I don't get it.

I am taking a break form multiplying radicals to let you all know that I am frustrated! Yeah, I haven't blogged in a long time and was waiting for the perfect moment to write a new post. Well, there couldn't be a more perfect time than now. I am so frustrated. Though I wish there could have been another perfect time, I guess this is the one I drew from the hat.

Why am I frustrated? Oh ya know..starving college student who can't afford next semester's rent, textbooks, or food, and has been searching from a job since day -14ish. That's right! I've been looking for a job since before this school semester started. I've applied at who knows how many places. I've only gotten two interviews out of that. Which I don't really understand. I've had two jobs since I turned 16. One I had for just over 4 years and the other one for just over a year. I even had two jobs at once for a period of time. I'm very good at scheduling my time and I am a quick learner. But yet, somehow this isn't good enough to clean bathrooms or be a teacher's assistant. Which I do not even begin to slightly understand.

Maybe it's just me, but I thought it took qualifications and experience to get a job. I thought that the whole point of college was to obtain education in order to find a job. If I can't even get some dinky little job grading student's papers using a grading key, or better yet, cleaning bathrooms and vacuuming buildings than why I am continuing this endeavor? Is college not centered towards education for work? Seems more bureaucratic to me than anything else.

I am at a loss for patience with this. Where's the jobs Obama "created"? What use is my education being put to? I know I am still going to be unemployed at the end of my schooling because all the under qualified people get the job I am qualified for. I work hard. I do what needs to be done. I will not go into debt for my education. I need a job to pay for housing, tuition, books, and food! I am always searching for a job in the small less than 1% chance that I might actually find one.

Now, back to solving my radicals in miniscule hope that this might actually benefit me one day.

Always Try!

I am not perfect.
But I try my best.

I am not perfect.
But I am a child of God.


Also, just some cool things that I have written down the past few days:

-The Holy Ghost has blessed my life by giving simple instructions as to what things in my life I need to fix. The Holy Ghost keeps me away from the temptation of sin as long as I follow the promptings.

-We never stop needing the spirit of the Holy Ghost!

-"Christ cames to save us. If we have taken a wrong course, the Atonement of Jesus Christ can gives up the assurance that sin is not a point of no return. A safe return is possible if we will follow God's plan for our salvation." -President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

-Always try to recognize the miracles in your life.

-We live in the house we build. Build on a rock!

-We don't gain our testimony all at once.

-You learn spiritually through obedience.

-The repentance process is less of a checklist and more of a transformation of a person.

-Sometimes He [Heavenly Father] lets us take the hit so we can see our strengths.


-Obedience requires faith.

-When you take the first step on the road, you also choose the last step.

-If it ceases to be an option, it ceases to be a temptation.

-The more our knowledge increases the more our choices are set on the right path.

-Satan never offers you anything that ends up being okay.

-You can make a decision, but you can't decide the consequence.

-There is a price to be paid for success.

-Joy is amplified happiness.

-A testimony is powerful and can change the lives of others.

-Heavenly Father never takes away your ability to have faith.

-Meaningful scripture study allows for change.

-Not going through the motions, but letting them go through us.



Those are pretty much my favorite tidbits from my spiritual journal. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do! :)


Again, I'm not perfect...far from it, but that doesn't mean I stop trying.

Effort

Great things come from effort. If you don't believe me, stop any effort you are putting into something and see if you get anything out of it. You won't. Well, you won't if it's something worth having.

"Continuous effort - not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential." -Winston Churchill

We put effort into our jobs so we can earn money for things we need. Without the money earned from our effort, we would be unable to purchase food, clothing, and shelter.

We put effort into our relationships with those around us most often. Without the effort, it would be hard to keep a friendship.

"Effort only fully releases its reward after a person refuses to quit." -Napoleon Hill

Effort is a choice. We can't just expect effort to come before us. We have to work for it....yes, we must even make an effort for effort itself. (I hope you get that, because it's late at night as I'm writing this!)

What does effort require?
(in no particular order)

1.  Patience with yourself: It's hard I know. But you have to give yourself some time! Keep believing in yourself. A little patience can be the difference between success and failure, and I know which one you prefer. ;)

2.  Faith: Faith just isn't a matter of spirituality or religion. It also involves having hope in things yet to be. Have faith that whatever you are putting your effort into WILL BE WORTH IT. Otherwise...why would you bother putting any effort in at all?

3.  Positive Attitude: If you are unhappy, regarding the thing you are putting effort into, then perhaps you should assess if this is really worth it to you. But before you decide to give up completely, ask yourself: Are you putting in less effort, yet expecting more? Or are you putting in too much effort and not getting anything in return? But honestly try your best to be happy. Are other factors in your life making you feel unhappy about this? Because, you know, you could just be being moody after all. ;)


Like I told someone very dear to me:

"Don't be afraid to give yourself everything you've ever wanted and refuse to give yourself nothing but the best."


And what does that take? EFFORT!!

YES...I just quoted myself using the big bold words.

92 Stuffs About Me

The other day at work while I was mopping the floor I thought: "Hey, I should make an about me blog post. Because people just LOVE to read about me." Obviously that last sentence was sarcastic. But I didn't feel like making a list. So I decided to do one of those facebook "92 truths about me" post. You know, because I'm cool, and you want to know about me and stuff.

92 Truths

NAME: Alix

AGE: 20 (21 in 7 days!)

BIRTHDATE: August 25

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage = water

2. last phone call = Stephen 

3. last text message = Stephen (on our ipod Pair app we share together)

4. last song you listened to = Roll Away Your Stone -Mumford and Sons

5. last time you cried = sometime recently. 

  

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = yeah. as in going on a date with them twice. Not as in, dating an ex again.  (NO!)

7. been cheated on = Not that I know of.

8. kissed someone & regretted it? Nope. Not this "someone"

9. lost someone special = nope.

10. been depressed = there was this one time where it was really bad for like a week. but breaking up does that to people. at least to me.

11. been drunk and threw up = NEVER EVER EVER EVER!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. blue

13. gray

14. coral

WITHIN THE LAST YEAR (2012), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend = Lots!

16. Fallen out of love = HECK TO FREAKIN YES! And thank goodness too!

17. Laughed until you cried = just yesterday actually.

18. Met someone who changed you = nope.

19. Found out who your true friends were = I already knew most of them didn't care anyway. But that doesn't mean we still aren't friends at all.

20. Found out someone was talking about you = duh.

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = indeed.

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = Most of them. But with the other ones, we talk occasionally.

24. Do you have any pets = Cooper.

25. Do you want to change your name = no. and I never understood why people do that. Even with spellings.

26. What did you do for your last birthday = nothing. it's pretty standard for me to have no plans that day.

27. What time did you wake up today = 9:03 i think it was. but maybe it was 9:04..can't remember. ;)

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = facebook

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = DISNEYLAND!!! :)

 30. Last time you saw your Mother = a few hours ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = umm wow...I am not telling.

32. What are you listening to right now = me typing on the keyboard, and the computer noises.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = Yeah. Probably at work.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = all the issues with school.

35. Most visited webpage = facebook.

37. Nickname = don't really have one.

38. Relationship Status = In a relationship. :)

39. Zodiac sign = virgo

40. He or She = she

41. Elementary =  west elementary school

42. High School = tooele high school

43. College = snow college

44. Hair color = blonde..but i dyed it light brown.

45. Long or short= usually longer ish.

46. Height = 5'2"

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = well it's more than a crush! that's better! :)

48. What do you like about yourself? =  that i try my hardest to be optimistic

49. Piercings = ears. but they close up.

50. Tattoos = NEVER! That's grody.

51. Righty or lefty= Right.

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery= first and only would be wisdom teeth.

53. First piercing = ears

54. First best friend = her name is emily. Can't remember the last name.

56. First vacation = DISNEYLAND! (duh!)

58. First pair of trainers = what the heck?

RIGHT NOW: 

59. Eating = nothing

60. Drinking = nothing

61. I'm about to =  either play zoo tycoon...or watch What I Like About You

62. Listening to = didn't I already answer this? Yes!

63. Waiting for = a lot of things.

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = I'm sure I will feel like I should one day.

65. Get Married? = YES!

66. Career? = It would be nice.

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes = eyes

68. Hugs or kisses = both. but hugs are more comforting.

69. Shorter or taller = taller

70. Older or Younger = older than me.

71. Romantic or spontaneous = romantic

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = problem solved. lol haaa Stephen..

73. Sensitive or loud = not too much of either

74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Hesitant. 

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = never

77. Drank hard liquor =  never

78. Lost glasses/contacts = yeah

79. Sex on first date = never

80. Broke someone's heart = highly doubt it

81. Had your own heart broken = ouchie yes!

82. Been arrested = nope

83. Turned someone down = yeah

 84. Cried when someone died = not anyone I know of.

85. Fallen for a friend = nope.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself =  most of the time

87. Miracles = yeah

88. Love at first sight = No way!

90. Santa Claus = nope.

91. Kiss on the first date = nope.

92. Angels = yeah



P.S. Why did I do this?